Never Grow Up

I can’t believe that it’s time to grow up. I’m not ready. I can’t believe how fast life goes, honestly. But at the same time I feel like when I think about something that happened two years ago, I think how long ago that was. I don’t want to grow up, I want to stay little.

Your little hand’s wrapped around my finger
And it’s so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter cause you’re dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
To you everything’s funny, you got nothing to regret
I’d give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that

My childhood was great. I mean compared to everyone else, I feel very fortunate. I had the best parents and I believe I exceeded all of their expectations. I know they gave me everything. Sure I was spoiled, but I did appreciate everything. I can’t thank them enough.

Oh darling, don’t you ever grow up
Don’t you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don’t you ever grow up
Don’t you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
I won’t let nobody hurt you, won’t let no one break your heart
And no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up

But now I’m being forced to grow up. I have to face everything I have feared. I don’t know if I’m ready to be forced into the outside world. I have become so dependent on everything and I don’t know if I’m ready for change.

You’re in the car on the way to the movies
And you’re mortified your mom’s dropping you off
At 14 there’s just so much you can’t do
And you can’t wait to move out someday and call your own shots
But don’t make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she’s getting older too
And don’t lose the way that you dance around in your pj’s getting ready for school

I think the thing I need to remember most is that I still have a year before I will be in college. I have to make my time count. I need to show everybody how much they mean to me. Because soon I will be in a totally new place with new people.

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother’s favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone

The scariest thing for me is that everything I have is going to be gone sometime. It’s a crazy concept, but it is true. Soon all my things and friends are just going to be a memory.

Wish I’d never grown up
I wish I’d never grown up

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